"This is Kai in Electrical Supply"

This is from a while ago, in my livejournal (which I almost never use):

I always say that I spend a lot of time "painting black on black". Which means, I spend an inordinate amount of time painstakingly and lovingly painting details that no one will see. This painting is a pefect example. Above is a close-up of the painting, but in the actual whole painting there is another flower silohuette (this time in dark blue-black instead of gold) upside-down to the right of the face. You can only really see it when the painting is tipped a certain way.

I look at it as another "task you have to perform for the Faery King" (like counting grains of sand on a beach or weaving sparrow's shirts out of spider's gossamer): meaningless in the human scheme of things, but dictated as essential for some greater and whimsical and more obscure good. I say this ruefully and humorously, of course. I'm probably just an artistic masochist.

This is now my job here in The Cold Place. Tedious and meaningless tasks that take up blocks of hours? I now know all about this.

It's ok, though, I'm a patient and generally upbeat person that can amuse herself while doing bullshit by singing or drawing on boxes or whatever. I take great pleasure in making labels for things and using different fonts. I really love my two coworkers and we are a little happy family unit. Sometimes I spent hours in the forklift attaching huge things with chains and dragging them around in the snow and ice. So these are all good.
But it would be more satisfying if this was done in the service of Beauty. Of course, then I wouldn't be getting paid for it.....